The more we worry, the more worry becomes habitual...our repetitive concerns have the potential to become the soundtrack of our lives. Calm Challenge 2019 - Day 19 meditation - Tamara Levitt, Calm.com
Because it's a funny thing about our ability to project the future. You have complete choice. You can see all life leading inevitably to darkness & despair as equally as you can pop up every morning ready to welcome everything as new adventure when it comes along. Brian Andreas, flyingedna.com
I am trying to shift to seeing the light, to welcome new adventures, to open myself up to new possibilities, and yet, I feel pulled back into the worries and the anxiety. It's been home for so long...shifting that foundation is like moving a house. It's something I've come back to time and time again. Trying to move beyond the constant worry and perseverating, and dwelling on things that I cannot change. Repeating others' words in my head - even when they are one-offs and I can't even remember who said them. The negative soundtrack in my head. The persistent belief that I am less than, not worthy, and that I should fade into the background and make myself invisible.
And yet... it's a process. A day at a time. A minute at a time.
I can do this.
I can do hard things.
It takes time.
It takes perseverance.
But I am nothing if not stubborn - nothing if not determined.